Part of me wants to talk about my body image issues. Part of me wants to talk about the many levels of pressure that I feel to rebel against social constructions of beauty while having intense cravings for a sense of belonging. Part of me wants to talk about how I don’t want to conform to what the world thinks is desirable and how this can conflict with my want to find acceptance amid the people around me.
The mind battle is so real.
In one corner, we have my unrelenting standards for self. In the other, my generally fragile sense of self-worth. They go head to head pretty consistently now a days.
I wish I could say that the underdog (my self esteem) has come up on top day after day and that it’s story has inspired people globally. Unfortunately, that isn’t the case. My sense of self-worth has taken a beating recently. It’s been knocked out, whether by it being hit over and over again or after one huge blow to the metaphorical noggin.
My unrelenting standards (aka my opponent) is currently being trained by my mirror. What I see in my reflection tends fuels what standards I have for myself. The more I value looking good according to what I see in the mirror, the stronger my unrelenting standards will become. The stronger they get, the higher my chances of losing will be.
I feel like someone who gets beat up in the ring won’t train harder to win unless they get tired of being knocked down.
I’m tired of being knocked down.
I’m realizing that my opponent has a trainer, but am I actively being coached and taught how to win my daily fight?
I’m choosing to allow for the Bible, Gods word, to help me to become strong enough to take the blows and, with time, knock out my unrelenting standards all together. I’m not a victim to my thoughts. I’m not a victim to the standards that I’ve established for myself. I am a champion and MORE than a conqueror in Christ!
Here are some scriptures that my lovely heart twin Tabi shared with me! Here’s hoping they help you, too!
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Psalm 139:13-14, 16
“Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.” Psalm 73:25-26, 28
“Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure.”Psalm 16:5
“I care very little if I am judged by you or by any human court; indeed, I do not even judge myself. My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me.” 1 Corinthians 4:3-4
“But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
“You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.” Song of Solomon 4:7
“Therefore I want the men everywhere to pray, lifting up holy hands without anger or disputing. I also want the women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, adorning themselves, not with elaborate hairstyles or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God.” 1 Timothy 2:8-10
“So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” 2 Corinthians 5:16-17
“She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Proverbs 31:26, 30
““Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and you will delight in the richest of fare. Give ear and come to me; listen, that you may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my faithful love promised to David.” Isaiah 55:1-3
“Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God.
For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.” Colossians 3:1, 3-4
“Should not your piety be your confidence and your blameless ways your hope?” Job 4:6 NIV
Yeah, you’re beautiful. Just because you’re you.